This body of work examines an autobiographical understanding of depression and the emotional reactions inherent to these states of consciousness. With depression feelings can often be masked and turned inward, and this hidden quality produces a melancholy outward reaction to internal turmoil. Psychologically conflicted states are expressed through visual metaphors of stripes, shadows and distortions within the work. The background is considered as a response to the buildup of psychological tension through the idea of liminality as a metaphorical state hovering between spaces. Physical liminal space can act as a dehumanizing factor or enforce the fragility of the context, and incorporates the sensibilities of melancholic sadness through the use of color and marks. The compositions are immersed in an institutional green space in order to heighten the state of uneasiness. The gestures focus on various states of despair and ideas of treatment through shock therapy and medication are explored. The brush strokes initiate a contradiction in terms of a fleeting moment of paint on canvas versus the slowing of time common in the depressive mindset. This work is further developing the sense of paint as flesh and incorporating human emotion into physical visual representation.